oh dear, not another one....?

...as requested, Jun Lin. haha.

just a graph i created

good luck ppl.

waiting

hey mr. dominos man, are you on your way yet?

are you riding on your bike, pizza strapped behind?

is my pizza still hot, the flavours correct?

did you get my order right, mr. dominos man?

hey mr. dominos man, i don't see you yet.

did you get lost? is here difficult to find?

should i turn on the lights for you?

are you on your way yet, mr. dominos man?

hey mr. dominos man, dont be late...

if you are then i get a coupon

and my pizza's no longer hot

but i gotta pay all the lot...

hey mr. dominos man

hey mr. dominos man

ride your bike and come

give me my dinner and be gone.

...is a really strong word.

im starting to feel as if my blog is an outlet for my frustrations.

i hate being alone at home ALL the time.

i hate being alone for meal times.

i hate having to ask, beg, plead and persuade others to have dinner with me.

i hate it when i have to dress up and get in d car and go out and find parking and get a table and sit alone and read the menu alone and wait for food alone, toying with my phone as if i have important messages coming in (in a way i do..) and avoiding the stares of people around me and wishing i had someone to talk to and then eating alone and then when im done pay the bill and walk out alone without a word and get back in d car n drive home alone and change clothes to home clothes again.

i hate it when i order expensive pizza delivered to the house and having to wait alone for the delivery guy, and paying rm30 for a meal alone at home watching tv and then cleaning up alone.

i hate it when this isnt once in a while. it's at least 5 times a week.

i hate it that my bro is not here. dont even mind d pubic-hair-on-toilet-floor thing.

i hate it that i xbox alone.

i hate it that coop games like halo3 and lotr: conquest and lan games like cs... i play by myself.

i hate saying that i hate being alone.

when i was.......

heya peeps. just back from sunway lagoon with college mates. i mean, college friends. not ppl from college who are possible mates (well except one sexy girl la. haha. but even then not til after them wedding bells).

anyways, in case you aren't from sunway a levels july 08 intake, i am on holiday dis week. been stoning lah. and lazy update blog. as usual. not as stressed anymore after mocks over. (yes i noe my major exam is coming soon stfu)

so anyways 8 of us went to sunway lagoon. i'll be posting in more detail later on when others post up pictures n i can steal from their blogs lar. so here's a brief run thru and also my thoughts on something that's been bugging me all day today.

morning meet at sunway lagoon, stop by for j.co's doughnut and black coffee. i dont noe y but i kinda insisted on going to j.co's for breakfast. mebbe it's coz i was thinking back to another lifetime when i went lagoon with another bunch of close friends (who are, by now, not as close anymore. dont ask and i wont lie.) and we had j.co's dat morning too.

for some reason my college buddies were in favour of going for d wet park before d dry park. therefore we went for all those rides n i pushed em on d floats at d wave pool and lazy river n all dat larh. n splash splash all. den after a brief bite, we went to d dry park. by then, boy was i exhausted. coffee wearing off, tired from all d exertion back at d wet park, etc etc. so no, i was not in tip-top condition to be going for all those barf-inducing rides.

i skipped d pirate thingy. den went some teapot thingy where u just spin n spin n spin n think of physics and spin and spin n think of centripetal forces n all dat nonsense dat im supposed to noe for a levels but not supposed to think of during a sunway lagoon ride during holidays. skipped d other tomahawk thingy. skipped d rollercoaster n d other one too. went for one or two more n dat was it.

now, d thing dat has been bugging me all day. since i didnt go for those rides right, some ppl just got it into their heads dat im sorta a wimp. a loser. and dat i suck for not going for these stuff.

well, maybe i am, who am i to say for sure?

but in my defence, let me tell you about my past experiences with these stuff.

i went for d genting stuff so long ago dat i cant rmbr when, and i only noe thru mum n dad abt it.

when i was ELEVEN, i went to disneyland in anaheim, california with mum. just two of us. mum n i were both scared but yet we still went for d matterhorn where it's almost all in full darkness. so dark u cant see ur own hands.

when i was FOURTEEN i went to disneyland paris. i went with a tour for youths, 5 girls and i. for three weeks i was in the uk and paris without family. and then at disneyland, i went for all those crazy rides by myself.

when i was SEVENTEEN i went to disneyland hong kong. quite a disappointment, actually. not many rides open. nevertheless, went for d space mountain n did other stuff.

last year, i went to some theme park in korea where there was a rollercoaster dat i went on dat was made fully out of wood and no metal, and it had a 70 degree drop (the highlight of d ride, apparently). during dat drop, my butt was off d seat. owh, and d ride was constructed such that d whole structure bends and sways along with u when ure taking those fast corners.

so tell me. do you think i'd be pissed when someone says that i suck for not going for all those rides at SUNWAY LAGOON? well, somehow i thought that real friends aren't judgemental. are they not real friends or have the rules changed?

screw this. it's 4am n i gotta sleep.

you know the meaning of destressing when....

Question: What does Ming Wai do on the night before his Physics Mock Exam? (2 marks)

....and YES i name my bots WTFail.

....only after studying....

....and before blogging....

....and then nao sleep. sleeeeep.

*to minghui: i know im a bad brother by saying this but... CAN YOU BEAT MY SCORE?? wuahahahhaa.... 20minutes game. heh. heh. hehhh. btw i took d sniper.*

where have they gone...?

the fun times...

chee kian, theng, and me with li jia at her bday poolside party.. dis is li jia semi-drunk... later she would keep saying "take picture la! take picture la! havent take picture yet la!" despite us telling her dat we already took pictures. haha. so keute.

soh yun han, me and lynnett at klcc. i menyampuk oni la. haha...

me and melody and the remedy! haha. miss u my friend. how's... erh... uk? haha.

me, vina, and sabrina... dis was after kyc07. notice my tshirt kena conteng with a bra. by aileen. where u aileeeeeeeeen?

dis was at qian's hse at the end of 2007. vina, me and edwin. after swim, before shower.

dis was recent. with many of d kyc gang! "sexylicious" gang they call it. haha. apparently i'm 'mingwailicious'. vina is vinalicious, natalie is natalicious, ken is kenalicious and so on and so forth. kinda lame and childish in a way but so cool n awesome. haha. when i use d word awesome i think of natalie. why arh? fish fish.

on d same evening as the above picture. vina looking prettieee as usual. haha.

dis with ma' ASS!! assISTANT. ex-assistant. haha. those were d days, when we'll perform at alsco functions like dis visit to rumah seri sejahtera. 

dis with da buddy justin ooi. he dun like taking pictures. so he was giving THAT look. haha. dis was at last year's tan sri dato' dr. jeffrey cheah scholarship awards ceremony. (to show that i got rm8k discount from my tuition fees. haha.)

dis with mich and ms ann, ALSCO teacher advisor. yeah. she's a teacher. now teaching me math. damn keute one she. but in class quite scary sometimes. most of d time. haha.

dis is with d 'alsco girls' + lorenzo... sarah, hui sin, lesley, michelle, and siao chien. eh? where's yuan teng? my pic not complete. =/

dis is with my bro! haha. back in korea. =)

dis is michelle chasing me at rumah charis trial run. d sponge throwing thing where it all started =D

and it's birthday season again!

happy birthday coyin! 18 dy wor. nah let u molest as present. xp

mingwai: mumble mumble...                

siao chien: what??                                      

mingwai: i said, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

i know it's kinda late... but happy birthday! my gila friend who's always d funnier one. haha... 

well that's it. bio sucked. chem will suck tmr too. bb.

eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeVENTs.

SATURDAY

morning til afternoon - a-level sports & games competition

morning til afternoon - kiwanis visit to zoo with children from various homes

night - charity dinner at bukit kiara (invited by nabilah)

SUNDAY

morning - st john ambulance pudu combined adult division Annual General Meeting 2009

.....and the best part?

MONDAY - FRIDAY

A-Level (AS) Mock Exams

which means i cannot attend ALL the weekend events. wat the f*************k!!!!

why why whyyy... usually NOBODY asks me out during the weekends... but when it comes to exam time, SUDDENLYYYYY....

*BOOM!*

invitations come pouring in (or so it seems).

oh, and i'm 'grounding' myself this weekend to do last minute mugging.

chemistry i'm really really worried.

math i'm kinda worried, coz i forgot a lot of stuff for AS, coz mixed up with A2 topics.

physics i'm a lil worried. d few testpapers that mr. ala gave us to do i didnt hand up coz din do in time, but i just finished dem just now, and... i find that without referring to notes, i'm quite lost. okay so maybe my physics i'm quite worried.

biology i'm a lil worried. lotsa details that have escaped my memory. (me trying to remember stuff is like trying to drink soup using a sieve) but not too bad i guess. coz the big picture of all d topics i can recall somewhat ok ok larh.

GP im quite worried too, but not much that i can do about it coz it's not really a studying subject.

so there.

so glad that i got over my bio presentation on cholera. my group presented on tuesday evening, and we did a spectacular job! haha. all thanks to all my team members who cooperated. even wz who didnt submit d proper points for his subtopic 'global concern' for both the powerpoint presentation and the hand outs... (well, i'm also responsible for that subtopic lar... ended up i did both anyway) but he impressed me when actually presenting. so i can safely say that all my teammates contributed their own part to the presentation. miss nesa praised us and said that we have good presentation skills. well. she also said i have good presentation skills coz i crack a joke every now and then. well.... i guess i have confidence for public speaking from all that leadership camps from kiwanis and my experience in sjam i guess. haha. ok well now starting to drag this 'acceptance speech' dy. haha. well. uh.

i got a dilemma la. yoke teck (my sjam senior) smsed me:

"Hi! You r seleted to participate in the State Competition 2009 on 25th n 26th April 2009 representing KLPCAD which will be held at Regional HQ. We r forming the team now n the training will be on every sat n sun starting fr 4th April. Training on weekdays will be inform later. Pls reply me whether u can make it or not n hope we could form a male n female team this year. Thanks!"

so yeah. add on to the list at the top...

SUNDAY afternoon - state comp training

well, i think i will reject the state comp thingy. for all of u who dunno... in wilayah persekutuan, usually there'll be only 2 divisions participating in my category, the Ambulance Adult category. so there's a 50% chance of goin to National Competition, which will be sometime in late May. and guess what?

May-June is my AS exam. One of the two major exams i have for this year.

i find myself imagining what my dear mother would say to me if i asked her. i can almost imagine being deaf from all the scolding and lecturing. i dont mean it in a bad way. the fact that i can predict her reaction guided me to decide that i wont join state comp. at least not dis year. coz i still try my best to listen to her advice and follow her instructions... i realise i cannot compare to her in terms of life experience. so therefore, most of her advice i'll take. except the part about "DON'T GET STEADY GIRLFRIEND SO FAST!! go play play around first before you settle down and get serious......" so yeah. haha. strangely i've never wanted to 'play play'... all my r/ships i treat very seriously one. well. for my part i do. haha.. #1 was not serious AT ALL, #2 im not so sure, #3 oso i not sure... haha. what? #4 u ask? refer to my previous post larrrr.... -.-!!!

anyways it's coming to 2am and i really gotta get some sleep. mr. chong's chem is at 8.30 tmr and i cant afford to be late. im already lagging behind. still slightly ahead of most i tink, but still not up to standards. hmmph. 26/40 for d mini-test. can u blif dat? hope mich betters me tmr..

so long and thanks for all the fish!

when the music fades....

you know (duh) that i dont really update my blog as often as i used to. and at one point i updated daily. but still, my blog seems so dead. 50 visits per week. dats not including my daily visits to see if anyone still comes. it doesnt look like it, and i only have myself to blame. anyways. i'm here to talk about one very special, wonderful person.

there are some times when you feel like the world is on your shoulders, and that everyone is watching you suffer and laughing at you for it. there are times when you just feel like there's no point in carrying on in life. it's too pointless. sometimes you even feel that your life is so dull and monotonous that you yearn to be free.

it is during these times that i am rejuvenated by this person. i am made whole again. i am revitalised. awakened.

there are moments in life when you feel like you're at the top. like you're feeling that there's nobody stopping you from taking over the world. nobody to prevent you from reaching the peak. and then suddenly you look down and realise that you're alone. all alone.

it is during these times that i know without a doubt that i am not alone. i have someone holding my hand all the way. sharing my joys, rejoicing with me as i rejoice.

occasionally you see other people together and you feel left out. you see them hugging and kissing and holding hands and being affectionate. and you look to yourself and wonder when will i ever get the chance?

in a single heartbeat my thoughts go to her. i know that wherever she is, i am in her heart, and in her mind. i can almost feel the love radiating from her to me, calling me out and basking me in her light.

there are some situations when you look in the mirror and dont see what you want to see. many times i see a fat, ugly monster with little or no talent at all. sometimes you see another girl and remark upon her beauty, her charm, her personality.

all these times, i close my eyes and thank the Lord. for i have been so blessed with loving not just someone beautiful, charming, or with great personality, but also someone whom i know loves me with all her heart despite my many flaws and weaknesses. i am safe in the knowledge that she will be there for me.

sometimes you just want to hold someone. like there's no tomorrow.

if i close my eyes, i see her and i can feel myself slip my arms around her and embrace her tightly. like there's not tomorrow.

well, if there really is no tomorrow...

then i have no regrets whatsoever with my one and only.

Michelle Teo Chin Chi.

keep on smiling, dear.